ksp
Registered: 11/29/08
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I keep saying to myself never again will I go through this. The pain is to much at times . I had to have my Vinney put to sleep July 28. He was diagnosed with lymphoma after a visit to the vet that morning. I made a promise to him many years ago that if he were ever to become seriously ill I would not allow him to suffer. Unfortunately I had to keep that promise that day. Vinney was given to me by my boss at the time. He was a barn cat who lived in her barn and they were afraid that he would get hurt around all the machinery. He always wanted to be around people but he needed a good home where he could live without danger so he came into the animal hospital where I worked and the first time I saw him I was in love. I mean head over heals in love with this big purring ball of fur.
I had the love of my life with me for 13 years. He was my shadow and my little buddy. My lap companion every time I sat down. I miss his paw at my face first thing in the morning, his constant purring and I mean he even purred in his sleep sometimes. He knew everything about me since we often sat and talked. Yes he was a talker.We could carry on a conversation for hours, just him and I. He knew more about me than my husband. If I was sick he kept me warm and toasty. If I had vicks on my neck for a cold he went crazy. He loved the smell.
His special quality was getting my parents to love cats. But most of all he loved me for who I was, no matter if I was crabby, sad , smelly from working in the yard it didn't matter. He was part of me for better or worse.
Now he is at rest in the yard with all the birds he loved to watch. I know my heart will heal in time but right now I just can"t believe that time will come anytime soon.
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ForYouTysieCat
Registered: 06/22/08
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Dear Ksp,
My deepest love and sympathy go to you in your time of sadness. No matter whether it was days, weeks, or months since your beautiful boy Vinnie passed the pain is still very real and I wish you comfort and relief of your suffering.
It sounds like you and Vinney were incredibly blessed to have each other and no doubt you were and still are the love of his life too! It is amazing to think back to the story of how your paths first crossed and the day that you first met and both your lives were changed forever. Remembering this day is also a wonderful way to celebrate the life and love you both shared, as opposed to focusing on the day that his mortal body could go no further.
I admire your courage, strength and selfless love for Vinney. You made a very special promise to him and you did not let fear or grasping prevent you from keeping your promise. This takes a lot of inner strength and a desire to put Vinney's happiness and needs well before your own. You truly are a special person for doing this and I am sure Vinney is grateful to have had such a wonderful Mommy and companion like you.
I so know about having conversations with cats! My wonderful Tyson used to speak, holler and sing with and to me! When I lost my beautiful boy after he was tragically hit by a car (May 18th 2008) my whole world ended and I was very sick and sad with grief. Never again did I think my heart would heal. I thought my life and myself as a person were permanently scarred and changed for the worse.
Well, 8 months down the track I can say that I have changed but it has been for the better! Tyson still is my shining light, but instead of being my gorgeous Schmooba Binks here (he went by MANY aliases), he is now my Divine Guardian Spirit who I share all my hopes, dreams and wishes too. I speak and pray to Tyson, God, the Angels and Archangels often and many of my prayers have been answered. No doubt your wonderful Vinney is still very much with you and loves you more than ever.
Time is a great healer. Another thing that helps is knowing and having faith that your precious Vinney has a Divine Spirit, like all of God's creatures, and that while his body passed his Spirit shines brightly and eternally. Someday you will be reunited with Vinney in this life or the Afterlife, and this is something that gives me great comfort when I feel sad about my Tyson - maybe it can help you too?
The Friday before the Sunday that Tyson passed on to the Afterlife, and continued his spiritual journey (something to be celebrated!), we saw a beautiful little kitten that looked just like him in a pet store near my work. My husband and I marveled at how much he looked like Tyson, and then put him back and headed home. A few days after Tyson passed we went back to the pet store - you see I believe us seeing this kitten was a sign from the Angels - and sure enough he was still there. With tear filled eyes I bought that kitten (the sales staff were very concerned about me, but understood after we explained) and our wonderful little Taylor is now nearly 10 months old.
I never thought I could open my heart up again either but I truly believe that Taylor was sent to us, not to replace my wonderful Tyson (absolutely no one could replace him!) but as the next chapter in our family. I also believe Tyson has been giving Taylor pointers as there as some very strange and indicatively Tyson style habits (drinking out of glasses) that he had from the very beginning. So you never know, someday another wonderful ball of fur may come into your life again - another beautiful creature sent to you from the heaven above and your special Vinney.
I hope that the new year brings you new happiness, love and joy. I wish you peace, happiness and relief from sadness. Remember that our Divine Companions are always with us and never really leave, they just leave their bodies. And as scared as we are about death (an unfortunate outcome of the society we live in today), from what I have read and learned over the past 8 months it seems animals do not see it like that at all because they are far wiser than us and know there is no such thing as death per say, but just moving on to the next yard to watch all the birds.
Much love to you,
Mel xo
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ksp
Registered: 11/29/08
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What a beautiful letter. Thank you so much. I can picture Vinney and my dad in a most beautiful wildflower meadow in heaven. Vinney loved to chase things I could not see. His invisible bugs I used to call them. When I go back to feed and water the birds right next to his resting place we always talk.
Some day he'll send a furry friend to me to love as much as I loved him.
May you and your family and your new love be blessed for your kindness.
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