I feel kind of weird; writing on a message board about this.  But I had to put my baby down 2 days ago.  He was a 16 year old German Shephard/Chow mix.  I am not able to have children of my own, so he was my child, my baby, my security, my best friend.  I don't want to do anything now, don't even want to go home to a house without him.  All I want to do is hug him and cry.   I am having him cremated and he will be put with me when I pass.  I was with him when he was put to sleep, the hardest thing was leaving him there alone.  My poor baby has never been alone.  Even when I am at work; my parents are with him.  He has never even spent a night sleeping outside of the house.   I truly feel like my heart is broke.

It eventually gets a little better  but it never stips hurting. I had to put down my 13 year old Yorkie Rocky and share your sentiment because I have no children.  He had cancer of the gum line and I took him in for surgery but there was nothing they could do other than remove a piece of his gum bone which I was not willing to do to him. I took him on that last car ride and he was in that window like a puppy. It broke my heart watching him go to the back looking at me like see you later mommy. There wasn't a later. Just stay prayerful and know that you'll see him next lifetime.